The more time I spend here I realize that ignorance actually is bliss, that being able sit in the shade of the light of knowledge of the injustice of this world is a trait that though should not be praised, certainly has its perks. More so than I have thought of it earlier. I would not like to live in that shade, under that roof which shields one from the knowledge, but it certainly stings to live in a place where your feeling of guilt never sleeps, where I can never shun away from the suffering, not even for a second.
What I will bring away from this place when I leave I do not know. But it has changed me, and fundamentally how I think about my future. I have given up on some dreams, and where they cease to exist, it feels like no new doors are being unlocked. I have to find a way to utilize what I can do. But for that I need to learn, and most of all, I need to find out what it is I can do.
When I first arrived here, in Dakar, I was full of myself. I hope that has changed a bit.
Posted on Wednesday, 5 November 2008
